drawing tablet

I'm really excited because I just got my first drawing tablet so now I can draw pictures on my computer and they won't look like (complete) crap!  To commemorate this occasion I drew this picture.

I think this is pretty good for my first attempt.  I'm going to keep practicing and getting better and if I make something good I'll probably post it here.

a pretty okay poem

Dead grass covers the ground,
of a forgotten town waiting to be found.
The people have long since gone,
and weeds conquer their forsaken lawns.
Empty houses line the street,
surrounded by flies, like rotting meat.
Broken prisons, bathed in sin.
Old schools, never to be learned in.
A decrepit town hall,
still waiting to fall.
And so this town remains a sore,
on the ugly face of the history of war.

All you need is (not) love.

I recently discovered that love is not the most important emotion that you can feel about someone.  Sure, it may feel like that with everyone and everything telling you what love is and how you should feel and who you should love.

 But love sucks.

Love is complicated.  It comes with rules and regulations and false hopes and expectations.  We are told how we are supposed to treat the one we love.  We are told that love is forever.  We are told that love is amazing and worth it.

But love sucks.

Love doesn't last forever.  It is a fleeting and fickle emotion that doesn't know what it wants or what it wants to be.

I learned that you should be in a relationship with someone you like, rather than in a relationship with someone you love.  If you like someone, you are more willing to work through problems together, because you like them as a person.  But love is weird.  You don't try to work through problems, you try to force the other person to agree with whatever you say, under the pretense of love.  "If you loved me, you'd agree with me"

Because love sucks.

my heroes

"The more you like yourself, the less you are like anyone else, which makes you unique" - Walt Disney





"I would piss on this couch, right now, no problem, while looking you directly in the eyes" - Dan Avidan





"You've got to make a statement.  You've got to look inside yourself and say: What am I willing to put up with today?" - Arin Hanson





"I've got big shoes to fill.  This is my chance to do something.  I have to seize the moment" - Andrew Jackson





This guy





(Couldn't find any good quotes) - John Stockton






"Life is nothing if you're not obsessed" - John Waters

why not?

It seems like most of the other posts are about what makes them human.  I could do the same if I wanted to.  But I don't.  Being human sucks.  I'd be ecstatic if I was a robot.  Well, I would be if robots could feel emotions.  I think our emotions are what make us not want to be robots.  "I'd hate to be a robot and only do what I was programmed to do", No you wouldn't, because you couldn't.  Instead you'd say,"Beep boop 01110000 01101100 01100101 01100001 01110011 01100101 00100000 01101011 01101001 01101100 01101100 00100000 01101101 01100101 ".  It would be so nice to be a robot.  You are created to do a certain job, and you don't have to worry about finding one.  You don't have to worry about school, or graduation, or applying to college, or finding a girlfriend or boyfriend.  You just sit and do your job.  And you don't even care.


Also I felt this was relevant

I don't even know

The fuck is up with crayons right?  How do you even pronounce crayons? Is it crayawns?  Is it crayns?  Who even decides how to pronounce words?  I want that job.  Every single word would be pronounced "butt", except with different inflections and emphasis.



My cat jumped on me and I got distracted, so I don't really know where I was going before.  But crayons are pretty cool.  They have a weird texture when you draw with them.  You know, my cat really messed up my concentration, I have no idea what to write now, so... bye I guess.

don't read this post

I was debating whether or not to post this, but whatever



Do you ever wonder what Hitler was like as a person?  Like, if you were just having a conversation with him and forgot about all the stuff.  I'm not trying to say that we should forget what he did or anything like that, I still think he was a despicable guy.  It's weird to think about people like that.  Especially people who we are told to hate.  Do you think he would be nice?  I dunno.  Clearly he was okay enough to get a girlfriend.  That's more than I can say for myself.

entrance(d)

A stage. Echoed footsteps. Polite applause. An entrance.

We place importance on first impressions because all we want is to be loved.  But I'm not here to impress. I'm not going to lie to get you to like me.  I'm not going to sugarcoat my bitter words.  I won't change to meet your expectations of me.  I am who I will always be.  I'm not here to impress.  I'm here to speak the truth.







Also I'll probably talk about butts or something.